Despite Jim's idealization of this reality, he struggles to hide his internal conflicts: a yearning for the childhood he lost and the innocent joys that once offered him safety and tranquility; a feeling of isolation and detachment from both nature and society; a wish for genuine and profound friendship; an inability to understand the origin of his suffering; and disillusionment in love. These emotions are woven throughout his story, highlighting his inability to attain self-awareness and spiritual contentment.