Last Updated on August 19, 2020, by eNotes Editorial. Word Count: 1091
Chapter 5: Holding Tight
After an arduous drive, Macdonald and her friend Christina arrive in Scotland to pick up the goshawk from the breeder. In their hotel room, Macdonald begins making jesses, the soft leather straps that will be threaded through the leather anklets on a trained hawk’s legs; jesses hold the falcon to the falconer. “Jess” is a French word, dating to the fourteenth century, and suggests the historical origins of falconry as a hobby for the ruling French class. As a child, Macdonald says, she took great pains to learn all the precise terminology that falconers use. For her, falconry terms were “magic words,” though she now understands that the complicated vocabulary used by falconers was also about social exclusion.
Thinking about a drawing she made as a child of a falcon and its jesses, Macdonald is reminded of the psychologist D. W. Winnicott’s writing about a young boy who was obsessed with string. Winnicott viewed this behavior as a manifestation of the boy’s fear of abandonment. Macdonald wonders if for her, drawing and making jesses was a similar symbolic gesture toward the fear of loss as a child. She was born prematurely and had a twin brother who didn’t survive; her parents did not tell her until years later, and it wasn’t wholly surprising. She had always felt that a part of herself was missing.
And now, she thinks, her father has died. Making the jesses begins to feel like a conjuring act to Macdonald; the hawk becomes real to her, and then she imagines her father standing before her, in his glasses, his tie askew, holding a cup of coffee. Macdonald remembers him teasing her as a child by purposefully calling her falconry equipment by the wrong names. Only now does she realize that this wasn’t teasing at all, but an act of love and respect: for him, as a photographer, referring to the tools of one’s trade with slang terms was a marker of expertise in one’s field.
Tomorrow Macdonald will pick up her hawk, who was bred in an aviary near Belfast. Goshawks are notoriously difficult to breed in captivity, as female goshawks will often kill their prospective mates. White’s goshawk, Gos, wasn’t bred in captivity but was taken from the wild, from a nest in a forest in Germany. In the 1930s, there was no need for goshawk breeders. Macdonald reflects on this as she describes watching webcam videos of the nests of wild-seeming goshawks who were in fact born in captivity and then lost by falconers.
The day arrives, and Macdonald goes to the quay to meet the breeder who will give her her hawk. The breeder has two boxes with him, each containing a hawk; he is meeting another falconer after Macdonald. Inside one of the boxes is Macdonald’s hawk. The hawk’s hood has fallen off, so the man takes the bird out of her box. She is beautiful, ancient-looking, and bigger than Macdonald expected her to be; Macdonald is entranced as she watches the hawk take in her unfamiliar surroundings. As she imagines the breeder tenderly feeding the hawk in its infancy, and as she watches him carefully attend to the terrified hawk now, Macdonald feels a sudden rush of love for the breeder. Then they both realize that this is the hawk meant for the other customer. The hawk meant for Macdonald is even bigger, is wailing “like a thing in pain,” and has a “blank and crazy” look in her eyes. Macdonald panics: this other, bigger hawk is not meant to be hers. Despite it being a “monstrous breach of etiquette,” she asks the breeder if she might take the smaller hawk instead. He pauses but seems to sense something of Macdonald’s desperation, and he tells her yes.
Chapter 6: The Box of Stars
Driving back home, Macdonald knows training her hawk will be hard; goshawks are known to be difficult, nervous, and unpredictable. She...
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