In George Orwell’s dystopian novel 1984, the main character, Winston, has vague, guilt-ridden memories of his mother. The nebulous nature of Winston’s memory is a function of the Party’s efforts to control every facet of its citizens’ lives—he is no longer sure of the events in his own past.
In Book 2, Chapter 7, Winston awakes from a dream and tells his girlfriend Julia:
Do you know, that until this moment I believed I had murdered my mother?
This statement implies that Winston now no longer believes that he murdered his mother. Orwell is not clear about why Winston has changed his mind about this, but he does state that Winston’s dream reminds him of the last time he saw his mother and what their life was like together after his father’s disappearance.
Based on Winston’s memories, it seems that as a boy Winston believed that his theft of a small piece of chocolate from his mother somehow ultimately led to her death. This is never directly stated, but it seems clear that Winston associated the two events in his mind.
This section of the story gives Orwell a chance to show how most citizens under the Party’s control have become bereft of emotional attachments. Winston’s memory of his mother contrasts with that idea:
If you loved someone, you loved him, and when you had nothing else to give, you still gave him love.
Winston’s mother did not abide by the Party’s goal of eliminating emotional loyalty to anyone other than the party. Notably, this leads to a further revelation on the part of Winston. The proles, citizens who are not part of mainstream life in Oceana, still maintain traditional relationships with each other:
The proles are human beings. We are not human.
Winston has managed to overcome the Party’s brainwashing techniques and come to several important revelations. Unfortunately, his independent thinking will cost him severely later in the story.