What internal conflict(s) is Jack facing that has him obsessed with killing a pig in Lord of the Flies?
Jack struggles with his fear of blood, but also his fear of appearing weak to the other boys. In the first chapter of the novel, Jack catches a small piglet but hesitates instead of killing it. The piglet escapes, and Jack feels embarrassed by his obvious fear, "the enormity of the knife descending and cutting into living flesh; because of the unbearable blood" (31). In the aftermath of the scene, Jack swears to the other boys, Ralph and Simon, that next time he will kill a pig.
Killing a pig becomes a fixation for Jack; he feels as though he must kill a pig to vindicate himself in the eyes of the other boys and to prove that he is a true master hunter, unafraid of blood or anything else for that matter. In the original moment with the piglet, Jack felt powerless, and in order to reestablish himself as a worthy leader, someone with power, he must overcome his fear of blood with a successful kill.