In the 40th section of As I Lay Dying, Addie assumes the role of the narrator. She explains and reflects on her true feelings of resentment for Anse and the children the two of them made together. She may have enjoyed her time with Anse before they were married, but once they had children that went out the window. However, Jewel was the only child she admittedly truly loved. Jewel was the was the result of an affair she had, the affair being a temporary escape from the life she is so unhappy with, and Jewel represents her short time of happiness. She felt as if Jewel was more her child than the others, who were more Anse's children.