Jonas has been well trained by the community, and he works very hard at using language precisely and accurately to communicate exactly what he thinks, feels, or wants. Therefore, he thinks very carefully as he analyzes his feelings and searches for the correct words to describe the way he feels when thinking about the upcoming Ceremony of Twelve.
He decides that, first of all, "he was…eager, he decided. He was eager for it to come. And he was excited, certainly." Jonas continues to examine his emotions, and acknowledges there are some other feelings present. "But there was a little shudder of nervousness when he thought about it, about what might happen."
Finally, Jonas settles upon one all-encompassing word to describe his feelings. "Apprehensive, Jonas decided. That’s what I am."