In The Kite Runner, what has Amir sacrificed for Baba that caused him to be "damned"? It is during the argument about his career path Amir thinks to himself "I would stand my ground, I decide. I...
In The Kite Runner, what has Amir sacrificed for Baba that caused him to be "damned"?
It is during the argument about his career path Amir thinks to himself "I would stand my ground, I decide. I didn't want to sacrifice for Baba anymore."
In chapter 13, Amir tells his father that he has decided to enroll in junior college and major in English. Unfortunately, Baba dismisses Amir's dreams of earning an English degree to become a writer in the future. Baba expresses his disapproval and believes that Amir should study medicine or law in order to become a doctor or lawyer. While Baba simply wants his son to be successful and earn money, he overlooks Amir's interests. Amir recalls his reaction, and says,
But I would stand my ground, I decided. I didn't want to sacrifice for Baba anymore. The last time I had done that, I had damned myself (Hosseini, 113).
Amir is referring to the numerous sacrifices he has made as an adolescent to earn his father's love and admiration. Growing up, Amir would go to great lengths to please his father, who continued to ignore and overlook him because he was not athletic or masculine. Amir went out of his way to please his father by participating in sports, watching soccer, and even ruining his friendship with Hassan to be closer to Baba. Amir distanced himself from Hassan numerous times because he knew Baba favored Hassan. Essentially, Amir is sick of altering his interests and ruining relationships to be closer to his father. He is finished living his life in hopes of pleasing his father and decides to major in English regardless of Baba's disapproval.
Baba does not want Amir to pursue a career in writing, he wants Amir to pursue a career in law or medicine. He wants Amir to be rich and successful and for once a son he can feel proud of. Amir feels like all his life he has given up important things to gain Baba's approval and love. He gave up his innocence, his integrity, his whole sense of character and doing good to gain Baba's love after the Kite championship. He gave up his best friend and his best friend had to give up even more so that Amir could find Baba's love. In the end Amir learns that it wasn't worth it and that the love, attention, and approval was fleeting, but what he sacrificed was permanent. By the time he reaches a place in his life when he is making career choices he decides to do what he loves and hopes that Baba can learn to love him for who he is.