How does the statement below relate to Laila's reaction to becoming pregnant with Rasheed's child, and what lessons does she apply from her childhood to raise her kids in A Thousand Splendid Suns?
Laila feels that growing up, her mother's love was reserved for her two brothers in A Thousand Splendid Suns. She feels that people shouldn't have new children if they have already given all of there love away to old ones.
Although Laila felt that her two brothers garnered most of the love of her mother, she also knew that she was the apple of her father's eye. Laila did experience love in her household, and she hoped that by giving birth to another child, even with Rasheed, there would be a new spark of love within their own home. Giving Rasheed a boy that he could shower with attention might distract him from the constant terror that he brought to his wives. Laila also knew that her own love for the boy might also bring her joy, bringing a harmony into the home that was desperately needed. Laila was different from her mother, and she knew there was room in her heart for the love of another child. She also hopes that this new child will bring out the motherly instincts in Mariam, giving her something to love in her otherwise unhappy world.
In the book A Thousand Splendid Suns Laila has already had a beautiful daughter from Tariq, but Rasheed her husband does not know it is not his child. He later impregnates Laila. Laila already hates her husband and does not want to have a child by him. She decides to terminate the pregnancy by use of a metal wire.
While sitting on the floor getting ready to poke herself, she thinks back on her own mother and how she did not have enough love left to give her. She had been an innocent child needing her mother's love. She then realizes that it is Rasheed who is guilty and her child is an innocent child and she decides not to terminate her pregnancy.