This is Abigail's appeal for Proctor's love near the beginning of the play. He has changed towards her and has just told her to forget their affair but she cannot accept this. She is saying here that she is looking for the Proctor that she formerly knew, the man who gave her love. This could be re-written as: 'I want the man who awoke desire in me, who taught me about love'. The point she is making is that before Proctor came into her life she knew very little about life and love, but he gave her experiences which she has come to cherish. However, after he rejects her she becomes vengeful.