As crispin considered everything he had recently learned about himself, he thought it odd that it had taken what three things for him to claim a life of his own.
Hello! When Crispin discovers that he is the illegitimate son of Lord Furnival, he can hardly believe it. After Bear is captured, the Widow Daventry tells Crispin that Bear kept the secret of his parentage from Crispin in order to protect him. Widow Daventry tells Crispin that Bear knew who he was as soon as he read the inscription on the Cross, but that he kept the knowledge from Crispin because he knew that Lady Furnival would never let Crispin have any claim to the Furnival name. Crispin now knows that John Aycliffe had been under orders by Lady Furnival to kill him ever since his (Crispin's) mother passed away. Rumor has it that Crispin's mother was the youngest daughter of Lord Douglas, and if Lord Douglas knew that his daughter had a living son sired by Lord Furnival, he would use Crispin to claim wealth and position in the Furnival name.
Crispin finds it odd that it has taken his mother's death, Father Quinel's murder, and the desire of others to kill him, in order for him to claim a life of his own. Even while he questions what kind of a life a fugitive such as him would enjoy, he realizes the irony that Bear has been more of a father to him than Lord Furnival.
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