When Pip, the gentleman, meets Magwitch again after many years in London, Pip narrates,
The abhorrence in which I held the man, the dread I had of him, the repugnance with which I shrank from him, could not have been exceeded if he had been some terrible beast.
This impression of Pip cited in Chapter 39, although not far from the one upon the marshes so long ago in Chapter 1, is different. For, in the opening chapter, Pip is frightened rather than repulsed by the sight of the convict. But, in either situation, Pip is not rude to the man. At the marshes, Pip shows concern for the fugitive from the law by procuring the "vittles" for the man; in the other situation of meeting Magwitch in Chapter 39, the young gentleman also is concerned, asking the old convict how he has gotten along since the days on the marshes.
Pip's abhorrence comes when the old convict reveals that it has been he who plays the role of the benefactor of Pip; at this revelation, Pip is appalled. Heretofore, he has believed that Miss Havisham has been his benefactor, but now he learns it is a lowly convict. This knowledge is a blow to Pip.
The chain of guilt that was begun in Chapter I as Pip rues the day that he stole the food continues now as Pip learns that his hopes for Estella, upon which he has built everything that he has done, have all been for nought. And, he has constructed a massive dream upon false foundations. Moreover, it has been a lowly criminal who has sent him to become a gentleman, letting Pip abandon his real friend, Joe Gargery.