After Antonio's dream in Chapter One, concerning the fight between the Marezes and the Lunas, why does he wants to see Ultima?
In Antonio's dream, he witnesses his own birth. Tony's dreams are very important throughout the novel, and this first represents his awareness of his identity, & the beginning of his search for meaning. He realizes the two families that live in him, comes to understand the conflict between their beliefs.
On the one hand, he has Marez blood from his father. The members of that family are traditionally vaqueros, who ride the land and remain free from ties to any one place. On the other hand are the Lunas. These relatives are traditionally farmers. Their life comes from the earth; they are forever tied to its bounty. Tony witnesses the conflict even in their gifts: The Marezes bring rope, bridles, etc. The Lunas bring vegetables and other crops. An argument breaks out between the two halves of Tony's family, over what Tony will grow up to be. This is also the battle Tony must fight throughout the story.
In this dream, Tony also realizes that another person was present, & this one person knows how Tony's life will turn out, what his destiny will be. This person is Ultima. At his birth, she stops the argument by calling out "Only I know his destiny." Thus, Tony seeks Ultima in order to discover his destiny. He needs to know what he will become, and how he can reconcile those two halves of his soul.
When my world explodes in betrayal, i need to connect! I need to share my trauma, my pain, my fear, and the details of what i've lived through and am facing. I require the validation of others. I need to know that i'm not alone, that what i'm going through is awful, that i can be helped, and that there's light at the end of the tunnel.
I need you to hold my hand through this challenging period. I'll answer your questions and express my shock, fear, and sadness. I'll gain perspective i don't yet have. I've begun to recognize the intensity of hurt, pain, and devastation I've tolerated and lived with for a very long time. I'll be offered guidance and help. I need you to direct me to good lawyers, doctors, financial advisors, as well as others who have lived through similar challenges.
You've helped me see who i am- separate from him. And that is just the beginning. Walk the long journey to healing with me. Listen to me, support me, and help me through every step. You've encourage me to try new things. You've guide me through the difficult risks and self-changing acts that i take on. You've helped me figure out when i'm doing old stuff and you'll fix me up with your friends.
You see, you are helpers, caretakers, and best friends. And i feel better when we are helping one another. Our relational connections heal us. We feel good when we aid our friends, and we all know we could be on the opposite side of the helping exchange the next time around.